WE'RE ALL ALONE

Outside the rain begins
And it may never end
So cry no more
On the shore a dream
Will take us out to sea
Forever more, forever more

Close your eyes and dream
And you can be with me
'Neath the waves
Through the caves of hours
Long forgotten now
We're all alone, we're all alone

Close the window, calm the light
And it will be all right
No need to bother now
Let it out, let it all begin
Learn how to pretend

Once a story's told
It can't help but grow old
Roses do, lovers too,
So cast your seasons to the wind
And hold me dear, oh-oh-oh, hold me dear

Close the window, calm the light
And it will be all right
No need to bother now
Let it out, let it all begin
All's forgotten now
We're all alone, ooh-ooh, we're all alone

Close the window, calm the light
And it will be all right
No need to bother now
Let it out, let it all begin
Owe it to the wind, my love

2008– thank GOD.. for his Loving hands..

tahun yg.. busy dan di akhir taun darren lahir.. our miracle, our little angel.. padahal dulu mah aku paling takut kalo disuruh pegang bayi.. ga kebayang deh tuh punya bayi..tp sekarang ini seneng rasanya ngerasain being a mom for darren.. he is so cute and so nice.. jadi belajar jadi mama-mama..

gini loh.. bayi itu paling penting di burp. kalo mo minum susu, in-between dan setelahnya apalagi harus di burp kudu kalo ngga susu bakalan keluar lagi.. burp ini spy angin di dlm perut keluar.. pengetahuan bayi yg laen: darren bisa dilatih disiplin pup jam tertentu tiap hari. jadi ga susah.. pup darren dah langsung bs dibuang dan ga belepotan sana sini.. trus darren punya biological clock yg tepat utk saat minum susu.. walaupun susu asi dikit, gpp deh.. pake susu formula drpd maksa jg ga bagus..

trus sekitar bulan sept punya tmpt tinggal di jakarta.. masih ngutang nih gawat.. semoga Tuhan membantu memberikan berkat supaya semuanya bisa dilalui..

cukup bnyk target yg belom kesampean..

2009 — msh nerusin target sebelomnya.. musti lbh serius sama karir yg sekarang.. malah jarang belajar nih selama cuti.. cuti 3 bulan dari saat darren lahir tgl 22 Des 08 sampe Mar 09.. ngurus darren di rumah dibantu mama and mami + rian.. rian ketabrak motor untung aja kaki kirinya doang yg retak patah.. dan semoga ga ada problem sama tulang belakang dan syaraf terkait..

thank GOD ada mami, mama, ema, ii, ibu mung.. pa iwang.. yg bantuin.. aku kadang suka ga bersyukur ya.. kadang suka ga sabar sama semua yg bantu — yg butuh penyesuaian sama standard aku di rumah.. cari baby sitter sampe 5 kali interview aja blm ada yg mau.. tiap kali janjian bakal dateng trus tau2 ga dateng..

oya ema smpt nginep sehari di rmh.. dan jagain darren.. senengnya!! ga nyangka cuma sehari itu doang ema bs nginep krn bsknya langsung harus pulang balik krn keluarganya ii juga need ema so desperately..

lg seru2nya di facebook.. nemu temen2 lama dan share foto2 lama.. :p senengnya..

wish for the year 2009: to be the best mom for darren yg bakal menjalani serentetan operasi.. 1st one on march 10, 2009 cleft lip surgery by dr. Gentur Sudjatmiko.. semoga darren selalu sehat2.. grandma selalu sehat2.. n so people that i love juga.. hope all will have more blessings in the year to come..

http://pey2.wordpress.com/2008/07/05/14weeks-and-related-activities-during-this-period/

I pray you’ll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don’t know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we’ll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L’eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c’e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we’ll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E’il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

—

we all love this song..
the singers are: josh groban & charlotte church, celine dion & andrea bocelli,  celine dion & josh groban.
currently im in a new condition that i hope i can get through it.. we need His Grace

this sunday we didn’t go to church, but i find this message from a friend’s ym message:

"man is not what he thinks, man is not what he feels, man is not what he eats, man is not what he behaves, but man is what he reacts before GOD! (Rev. Stephen Tong)"

at first it’s difficult for me to know the meaning of this statement. don’t really get the message.. and that hope someday i will know.. then.. mmm i decided to have a chat.. here’s the summary:

it is refering to what people do or respond to GOD. then i try to understand.. it’s what we do, and what we respond to GOD - that makes us a man.

an she explained to me.. as simple as this.. if we think GOD is our parent, what we need to do to make Him happy .. is to put more attention to Him, to keep communication.. that’s what makes us a man.

a person can be so rich, can be so smart, may have everything in the world.. but all are not eternal.. what we do that pleases Him that makes us a man.. to have a life.. an eternal value.

to be a child of GOD, is to strictly follow GOD’s voice. in every difficult condition.. when there’s a time in our life that our goal of life is not pointing to whatever on earth.. we may face difficulties.. etc etc..  but we can choose.. that we set our goal of life.. pointing our life to our GOD above. that’s what makes us a man.

my soul can only praise Him.. for He is faithful and knows our every needs just in time. an absolutely wonderful GOD!! we decided to share this story, that lots of people will be blessed too.. !!! not just me and another good friend of mine

im so very happy today! when i checked my email.. i found a miracle. now again i realized.. i have a very good coach and a good friend like u. just like an angel sent from GOD above it’s really a big surprise for me, GOD has been so kind!

dear joe, i don’t really know how to thank you..
wo duo xie ni u r so attentive n kind
i’m really blessed to have a good teacher and friend like you!!
may GOD bless your life in more abundance n happiness
and that in your journey .. u will find success n all
the best thing in life..

have a nice weekend..
huhuhu jadi terharu nih jo.. bis sblmnya g beneran blank ;p
u’re like an angel given from GOD..
xixixi.. awas idungnya terbang
take care n GOD bless my coach..

jumat pulang bogor, tau2 rian dah cetakin foto red background ini pake ukuran gede.. :p senengnya

mau share tmpt mkn yg enak.. :

aku n rian kmrn ini ke blossom factory outlet yg di pajajaran.. bis dr situ.. nyebrang.. nyari2 makanan.. di daerah situ ada warung kecil pinggir jalan kecil di sebrang "bumbu desa" nama warungnya "cafe bunda"..  sptnya yg punyanya asal dari daerah timur.. jadi agak unik rasanya. recommended buat coba sop iganya.. krn pake cengkeh cukup banyak, wangi cengkehnya cukup dominan.. banyak dagingnya dan sangat mpuk.. enak deh ga nyesel nyoba. juice jeruknya lumayan, kentang goreng jg enak.
ta malah blm nyoba "bumbu desa" n "sari wangi" krn rame bangeet heran.. nanti deh kapan2. suka males klo rame bngt.

bbrp waktu lalu jg aku n rian nemu tmpt cuci mobil yg lumayan asik di pajajaran. namanya ‘autotic’ kalo ga salah. harga nyuci sama kayak tmpt kita biasa cuci dulu cuma kali ini pas nunggu di lokasi, bisa sambi makan baca krn ada cafenya n ada tmpt baca komik2, buku n majalah..bisa jg liat2 taneman n beli pupuk.. mungkin next time bakal ke sana lagi. idenya bagus, makanannya enak. buku2nya lumayan.. banyakan komik elex n mrk ksh pinjeman buku buat anggota yg daftar.. servicenya bagus.  cukup detail bebersihnya walaupun mobil ga diangkat ke atas. itu aja kekurangannya nurut aku sih.

today akhirnya kesampean nyoba nasi timbel sebrang kampus ipb pajajaran yg diinfo bbrp temen di jakarta n diinfo encim cai ha.. ke sana jam 2 siang.. ga kebagian nasi timbel ayam-nya.. jadi kita pesen nasi timbel empal.. tempenya enak.. oncomnya spt biasa rian yg suka.. utk empalnya.. ga recommend krn terlalu bnyk serat.. sayur asemnya ada semut merahnya.. mungkin lagi kebeneran aja kali yah.. next time deh coba nasi timbel ayamnya. buka tiap hari jam 8.30 tutup jam 4 sore.

bbrp waktu ini missed waktunya si ibu yg harusnya tiap sabtu minggu bebersih.
ada2 aja deh.. spt biasa keliling ke bbrp tempat.. ke mama udah hari sabtu, eh hari  minggu mama udah sms lagi.. ada ayam garlic kesukaan rian lagi..

o iya. ada satu hal lg. rian udah nemu cara masak sayur tales yg cukup unik. spy yg makannya lehernya ga gatel2, batang sayur tales muda, harus dibersihin serat luarnya. sebaiknya pake alat pembuka kulit wortel.. paling aman. jgn pake tangan gitu aja krn getahnya bikin tangan berubah warna jadi coklat n mesti pake minyak goreng.. udah buang kulit serat luarnya.. baru dicelor bbrp kali pake air mendidih spy terbuang getah2nya.. getahnya ini hampir sama kayak getah lidah buaya.. udah bbrp kali buang.. baru deh dimasak cah pake cabe rawit.. emmmm enaaaknya bikinan rian..

apr 13 udah tengah bulan! tadi pagi ikut pemilihan calon gubernur jabar di kompleks. hade itu artinya apa yah.. pokok yg pasangan calon III, calon gubernurnya tampangnya ok keliatannya spt org bae.. gpp deh kasih kesempetan org baru lg. emang sih mungkin agak starting from zero tp semoga sih ga salah pilih. soal klo milih agum, udah terkenal ada gosip2 ga bagus.

bsk mesti balik jkt lagi n di kos lg huhuhu. perasaan ga bisa konsen nih. pengen balik bogor aja tp pake teleport gitu kalo bisa.. :p  jumat kmrn balik bogor macetnya minta ampuuuuuun… lama di jalan! bogor ujan mulu tiap hari, jalanan pada rusak..n ga heran di bbrp bagian jkt banjir deh jadinya..

a letter to my own soul..
it’s not good to focus to an illusion
u have to find out and face the reality
which is not as good as what u have in mind
don’t be blind.
it’s not too late to choose to be free
it’s not too late to walk out of ur illusion
it’s not too late to find a new life, a new hope, a new u..
be grateful n be thankful
ur current state, He is teaching u something for ur own good.
though u r in difficulties, He is always be there for u
the keeper of our souls

ga kerasa udah mo masuk bulan april lagi!!
bulan maret ini aku mesti bersyukur buat hal2 kecil n besar yg udah dikasih Tuhan. temen2 yg baek di proyek.. pelajaran dari p harry ttg kondisi-kondisi non teknis n kehidupan.. ttg enjoy life n relax..
kondisi yg sulit.. huhuhu.. tough struggle.. msh keras kepala.. mo belajar nego n belajar lobi aja susah bngt sih. xixixi  aku ini klo ga  salah beneran anak yg  males ngurus hal2 buat diri sendiri mungkin. blm ada kemajuan dr  bbrp resolusi taon baru. malah ada yg loss krn udah bbrp lama ini ga renang regular..
perjuangan tiap hari di jakarta.. yg asik apa yah?
-di tim ada  pa didik yg jago masak jadi bisa belajar masakan european n bawain seloyang kotak gitu!! ;p
-testing perasaan msh normal apa ngga. pokoknya.. aku intinya ga mau n ga boleh jadi org yg munafik. paling ga suka kemunafikan. no way. jadi jujur aja sama diri sendiri yah! coba jadi org yg dewasa dikit deh. cari tau n beresin perasaanmu yah klo ada waktu.. ini knp ditunda-tunda terus sih!!! ur subconscious mind need some attention..!
-makan indomi di warung belakang bareng rini.. waktu jumat pas ujan2
-ikan bakar di daerah permata hijau ternyata enak..
-ketemuan temen2 di plz semanggi top roof. minum red wine.. ;p
-kesempetan belajar perasaan msh blm dimaksimalkan krn msh agak susah konsen
-masih adaptasi sama kondisi ini itu..
-kos dkt pasar jadi bisa cari buah2 buat dinner..
-walaupun msh berkutat dg my sub-conscious mind yg tukang khayal itu. selalu berharap dijauhkan dari pikiran2 yg ngaco..spt ada bbrp pagi where i missed someone.
-expense yg parah banget perasaan nih bulan maret ini krn ngurus mobil ke bengkel, rian needs etc. ga ngerti deh semoga sih bisa cukup. jangan lupa doain rian tiap hari yah if u want to..
ini dah mulai ngantuuuuuk.. dadah dulu

the great movie the Passion of the Christ
a rememberance …
Jesus has suffered and He has died for us, to redeem our sins and our transgressions.
and He has risen.. a truly living GOD
He has given us a new LIFE! He has healed us!

we are precious in His sight..
no matter who we are now.. who n where we were.. what we have done
when we turned around we will find Him waiting
with His open arms and His everlasting love

Isaiah 53:3
He was despised and rejected by men
a man of sorrow, and familiar with suffering ..
Isaiah 53:4-7
Surely He took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows
yet we considered Him stricken by GOD
smitten by Him and afflicted.
But He was pierced for our transgressions,
He was crushed for our iniquities
the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him
and by His wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheeps, have gone astray
each of us has turned to his own way
and the LORD has laid on Him
the iniquity of us all
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet He did not open His mouth; …
Isaiah 3:11
After the suffering of His soul,
He will see the light of life and be satisfied
by His knowledge - my righteous servant will justify many
and He will bear their iniquities.
Isaiah 3:12c
because He poured out His life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For He bore the sin of many
and made intersession for the transgressors.